On the photo you see
the way leading to the camping.
In that time peasants used to travel on horse-drawn
At dusk, we used to gather on
the beach, around a fire,
on the time I was writing The Angels of the Guard
The Angels of the Guard
Chapter 3 - b
Adam makes a round, visiting all the refuges where Sandra could have gone : the ones of her family, friends and acquaintances ;
but without finding the slightest trace of her. She must have remained above –
he tries to assure himself
; but, why ? ... There is no sense to do it. – And, becoming more
and more worried, he returns to the surface.
Dusk will come soon. The birds are looking for a place to spend the
night among the trees. Slowly, the blue of the sky melts with the reddish
colour of a beautiful sunset. The fresh air is becoming colder. The meadow is
losing its green colour, becoming darker and darker. The light of the day
vanishes to let the nature rest. I sense so much sweetness in the air even
though my soul is blue...
Meanwhile, Adam observes carefully all spots, searching for a sign, some
indication telling him where to head for. He walks and walks in soaring
anxiety. Sandra’s house is empty : no people, no
furniture, nothing at all but solitude. Where could she be? – he keeps asking to himself. – Then he
goes to his own house finding it also completely abandoned ;
he searches everywhere without success. Desperate, he screams with pain by
calling her name, but his voice voyage alone in the lone air without getting
any response. There is nobody to hear him.
Night has fallen completely now. No light at all unless the tiny one
made by the moon. Adam returns to the chimney to ask the guardians if they have
seen Sandra. He makes a picture of her, explains what is her
look, trying to remember all what makes her recognizable. Nothing
helps... There are other chimneys not too far away. And in spite of knowing
that it is 99 % impossible to find any indication about her there, not wanting
to loss that poor unique possibility,
he visits all of
them questioning their guardians. Finally he is very, very tired, exhausted !! It seems to him that if he continues searching like that
only a little more, he would fall and die.
So, slowly, having lost all hops, he takes the way back to the chimney
he belongs. Consoling himself with the remote
possibility that in the meantime Sandra had reached the refuge of her family.
During his difficult way to return, because of being so tired, of having
spent two nights without sleeping at all ; another day
is raising, spreading its pale wonderful reddish colour all around. But Adam is
too tired and
too sad to really appreciate it. His whole body hurts. The remaining way to
achieve to get to the chimney seems terribly long for him ;
terribly far away ; seems impossible to
Suddenly, he hears a tiny lament.
- Sandra !! – he calls
regaining some hope –It’s you ?
– Yes, I am Sandra. Please, help me ! – He
hears her saying with a tiny very low voice.
– Where are you, Sandra ? – I am Adam. I will
help you, don’t be afraid. ... But I don’t see you and I need to know where you
– I ... I am ... I am down here ... I fell ... I fell in a hole. ... Please, help me ... Look down ... at your feet ...
into the earth. ... But please, take care. Don’t fall. ... It’s dangerous, very
deep and dark ... very difficult to spot. ... Easy to fall in
it. ... Take care ... please ... I need
you. ... Adam .... Adam !!!
– I shall find you. Confide in me. Don’t be afraid.
He says that while inspecting carefully, accurately, all spots around
him, but seeing nothing. He only hears Sandra’s laments... Big tears are
falling along his cheeks obstructing the sight of his eyes ... One of his feet
loses support making him fall down in the profound hole, where all is
blackness, all coldness.
Shutting his eyes, unable to think anymore, to understand anything,
feeling nothing but tiredness, he loses conscience.
He wakes up after who knows how many hours and looks around surprised:
Sandra lays down near him, asleep. It comforts him happy to see her, but the
place where both are results disturbing and strange, very strange and most disagreeable : horrible, obscure and full of little frightful
Rubbing his eyes, trying to clear his mind , he
says to himself : “I must be dreaming ... sure I must be. This cannot be
real”. – Then Sandra wakes and speaks
and he must reckon that he is not dreaming : Sandra is
really near him, the place is really ugly :
– How ... do ... you ...
feel? Are ... you ... injured? ... Does ... it hurt ... a lot? ... ... Please, ... tell me.
... I am so
anxious !!! – Sandra is asking him.
Still without assuming wholly what occurs to both of them, Adam is only
able to caress and smile to her. He wants to speak, but no word gets out of his
mouth. His lips are moving producing no
– Are you ... suffering ... a lot ? – Sandra is asking repeatedly to him.
She is worried about him but it is difficult for her to speak. She is
Recovering a little, getting somehow used to the present state, Adam
tries to comfort her :
– Don’t worry about me, darling. I feel myself in heaven, just because I am
– Can you move ? ... Nothing ... broken ?
– I don’t think so. I must be fine , despite each part of my body hurting
dreadfully, but this is normal after such a vertiginous fall.
He says that staring at the tiny light coming down from the top of the
deep hole ; bothering about the manner of getting out
of it. Also it looks impossible, he MUST find the way. It is a question of life
or death. They cannot stand waiting for help. Nobody would find them. Man has
to fall in it to localize the hole; otherwise it may never be seen. The walls
are straight and bald, without any cleft to put the feet when climbing.
– This must be an abandoned chimney. We are in a very bad position, but
we MUST find the way to get out – Adam says. Then he add :
And you, how are you ?
– Bad. It ... cost
me ... a lot ... to move ... my body ... close to yours. ... And
... and ... I ... am ... nearly ... unable to speak. ... My legs hurt a lot. ... But
... together ... we ... we ... ... I’m glad ... you’re ... here
To much speaking
for poor Sandra. She cannot talk along anymore. Adam suffered for that, a lot,
foremost he is not feeling
well either. But ... ...
– My poor darling. I don’t know how, but I promise you we will get out
of this. I shall take you to a doctor and soon you will be healthy again. In
the meantime, try to rest. Don’t speak. I shall take care of you. We have to be
patient and calm. My brain will be working to solve our problem. For that I
need to think a lot. Please, try to sleep. After sleeping, you shall feel much
better... ... We are young. We have still a long
future in front of us. We will be happy. I assure you... We shall have a long
story to tell our children.
– Adam’s words make Sandra smile. Leaving her hand in his she shut the
eyes, wishing to fall asleep and dream about a future of joy together, with
children around them, and peace and happiness...
After some hours, both have regained a little energy. But night had come and all is
darker around them.
Taking their bodies closer, warming each
other, they fall asleep again. Tomorrow will be another day.
Dawn again: a little light filters through the top of the hole. Nothing to eat but this is not the worse. The situation is
critical. Adam makes his neurons work. “How is it possible they didn’t surround
such a dangerous place with a barrier? A lot of people must have passed this
way to reach their assigned chimney. How odd only us
had fallen! May be it is like Sandra thinks, that the guardians took the
barrier out assuming all people were already down in their refuges? Still it is
not normal. Why taking it out? Did they need it for something, but for what?
... Does somebody knew Sandra was still up? ... But why??
... Why did she not descend with her parents? How strange is all this to me !!! ...
– It looks like it was meant, that somebody wanted us to disappear.
Don’t be silly – Sandra says –. Who could hate us so much?! ... I have no enemy and people adore you.
– I need some explanation from you : Why did
you not descend with your parents?
– For nothing. I know it was stupid for me not to follow them. I had a
bad reflex and when I became aware of it, it was too late.
– The motive must be of great importance to let you take such a foolish
– We cannot remedy my wrong doing now. Please just forgive me and forget
it ! ... Please, I implore you. I am ashamed and I beg
your pardon, but we both must forget it.
– How can we forget it? ... Impossible to forget things like this!! Don’t you see what happened to us because of
that? ... We have to reason it. We cannot let grow a wall between the both of
us! It must be explained now... I was made a fool looking for you day and
night, until I feel drained. I was just about to die on spot when I ... ... You
know the following! don’t you? ... How dare you ask me
to forget !!! ...
Impossible, impossible, impossible, don’t you understand
– I behaved like a fool, I know... And I am ashamed, truly ashamed...
But you must know that it lasted just a moment, I recovered the reason at time
to take my way down to the refuges. If it hadn’t been for this horrible hole,
nothing would had happen.
– What you did or restrained to do does not disturb me, but I need to
know about it. It is important, very important for both of us. I will do my
best to understand, I promise. You must confide in me. Otherwise we cannot
spend a life together. There would be no reason for it. Being a stranger to
each other is like to be alone, worse than being alone.
The fact is that I am very much ashamed about it. I want to forget. I
absolutely need to forget. Please, don’t oblige me !!!
– You’re wrong. It would do well to you sharing it with me.
– It is a long story. Better I tell it to you in another moment. I do not feel
well now, and I am very tired. We both need some relax first. After, I promise
I’ll let you know all about it.
– I regret, but I need to know it now. These things are to be shared at
once. We cannot bear secrets between us even for a few minutes. If I am here,
if I fell in this horrible hole, is because I love you so much that I couldn’t
stand in the uncertainty, I couldn’t live without knowing what had occurred to
you. This proves my reliability; this proves that you can confide in me. Now,
come on. What was it so terrible to make you undertake that so foolish
decision? ... ... Come one !!! ...
– Don’t you remember you told me to oblige people is always wrong, that
nobody is morally allowed to do it... And, what are you doing now ??? Are you aware
of what you are doing, obliging, forcing me to reveal what I I
don’t want ???
– First of all, you, for me, are not the people. You are the girl I want
to share my life with... But if you really want to keep your secret, do it. How
on earth may I force you !!! I am leaving. Well I
shall do it when I find the way to get out of here. And don’t worry, I shall advise the guardians to rescue you.
– I beg your pardon, Adam, I never meant to
offend you. I shall tell you the whole story. I begin now if you want. After,
you shall think what you like. The worst is already done.
And she begins this way :
“ You know I have been working until
the last moment. You know that ? ... I used to take my
lunch in a restaurant near the school. ... ... “
– It is long to tell. It would be more appropriate for now to think
about the manner to get out of here. Don’t you think so ?
– I never stop thinking about it and making my neurons working. Don’t worry ! ... ... But, please, go on !
And Sandra continues telling, but slowly, searching excuses to not
pursue, to attire the attention of her lover on other things. She feels upset
to have to reveal what she wants and need to forget. It had just been a thought
who passed through her mind during some minutes, but odd enough it had been
sufficient to put her and Adam in such a terrible position, without any issue
What I learn about it is that we must be prepared for all events, the
most incredible may occur ... ...
To be followed on next issue of AIR
NOTE OF THE AUTHOR
have to bear in mind that at the time I wrote the book there were no cell
phones. The technology we have now did not exist.