The Angels of the Guard
And Sandra continue raconting:
- One day, I was eating calmly, seated in a table at the back of the
Restaurant, when I heard somebody pronouncing both your name and mine. I was
thrilled and I listened :
“”” – Have you seen Adam Albion on
last Sunday? - asked a feminine voice? .
- Yes – answered
another voice, but masculine this time – He was strolling about with a young
lady. – I heard that they would marry soon.
- They told me that,
too. I know this girl from sight. She doesn’t worth a penny. I wonder what Adam
had found in her. Nothing of her person is interesting ;
she has neither a good position; she is not nice looking nor sympathetic. ... On
the contrary, he is so beautiful!, so handsome! ... At
his place, I would have chosen an elegant woman coming from a well known
family; with a well balanced body; in order to be able to introduce her
everywhere with pride. It sounds to me rather difficult to understand. The most beautiful and
rich women are creasy about him. And ...
he compromise himself with this plane girl, who has
nothing of value; who has nothing to attire a man: neither a pretty face nor a
slender body. ... Did you see her close up? ... Her visage looks like a
- It would have been
difficult to find an uglier; that is true. With the wonderful girls who are
constantly flirting around him ... I think men are too good ... I can figure to
myself what occurred ... He may have had
a date with
just to flirt a little; and she would soon have created a
novel around it. We have to take in mind that when a girl who doesn’t expect to
live a love story, finding herself not
pretty enough; and then a man like Adam approaches her amiably and takes her
around; she would forget reality and live in a dream, becoming foolishly
enamoured... After all, she may have other qualities. You must not be so severe
with her. ... He doesn’t want to disappoint her. Do you understand? ... He must
truly love her. Why not? ...
- No! I don’t understand.
Men do not seek goodness in women, but beauty; and this one has none. ... How
many tears she had had to shed to be accepted! ...
- It could be. You must
know how you, women, manage yourselves when you desire to capture a man.
- Are you dropping me a
- Take it as you wish!
- Anyhow, they can
marry; but I tell you, their marriage would not last long. Too many beautiful
and intelligent girls are around him. I bet you anything that they fall apart
before the year. And I win, sure!!! ... ... “””
Sandra carries on with the story, unwillingly. Her voice sound very sad
when saying :
- You see how difficult it is for me to tell this to you? I did not know
I was so ugly, so terribly plane, lacking of any interest in the eyes of other
people. I did not know I was so worthless. Once at home, I asked the mirror; and what I
saw didn’t please me. I thought it may
be possible that those persons were right; that you need somebody more
valuable. I thought the better I could do is to depart; to let you free. I managed
to convince me that I
have to learn to love you only for your good, not for mine. ... I tried but I could
not imagine a life without you. I really need you, and THIS is
what gave me so a big ,
unwearable blue. I cannot shine and there are so many diamonds making their facets
sparkle when passing near you. People are right when they wish you to take the
most beautiful. You are worth still much more. You must take the most precious
and caress it with your hands so smooth! ... ... People say you must take it,
that in contact with your skin it would become warm and change into an
enamoured woman. ... ... And ... I ... ... and I ... must be happy, knowing
that you have the best, which is what you deserve! ... ... But I shall
not be able ... ... I
know I SHALL NOT !!! ... ... Thinking it better, perhaps I could, if only, each
day when I get up, I
have the security of your happiness. ...
And afterward I fell that I am the only one that could make you happy
... ... That you can only be happy with me; and, again, I fell in despair. ...
... I don’t know what to do. One minute I think I have to leave you free, the
next I know it would be wrong because it would only torment you.
Adam cannot speak... ... Too many contrary
feelings heap on his soul. He truly loves Sandra. Seeing
her doubting hurts him. Because of that, because he fell unable to convince her
with words, he takes her in his arms and kisses her with great passion.
But the face of Sandra is contracting with pain. Warm tears are silently
falling upon her cheeks. Her body is terribly aching, clasped into Adam’s arms. Nonetheless,
what saddens her the most, is noticing that she is unable to let her lover
enjoy what he must want and need, what he is dreadfully longing for.
- Please, put me down. Your hugging so tight hurts me so much I cannot stand
it. ... I am very sorry about that. You would never understand how terribly sorry
- I beg you my pardon, my love ! ... ... I
forgot for a moment your... Can you forgive me ??? ... without my will !!! ...
... I injured you so much !!! ... ... I am in debt
with you and I want to pay it the highest price. I swear to do all in my power
in order you feel, one day, the must happy of all the women of this planet.
With tenderness, Adam deposed the aching body of Sandra on the hard
- Try to sleep a little. It would
do you good. I am sorry you had to lay on a so
uncomfortable place; but what can we do? ... ... I shall take care of you. And
please, don’t forget that I love you; that you are the one for me; the only one
and the most attractive. Those beautiful women you call diamonds cannot take
your place in my heart, never! I don’t think they have much to give to a man
apart of beauty which fades away very soon ; beauty alone
cannot fulfil a life of love. Your doubts hurt me a lot. Why did you not
confide in me. You was about to ruin two lives, you
know?, yours and mine.
- It has been just a moment of blue. It will not occur anymore. I told
you I was ashamed. I comprehend now how deep is your love.
I love you; you love me; we love each other ... ... BEING ABLE TO THINK LIKE
THAT, IT’S SO WONDERFUL !!! ...
Sandra put her hand in the hand of her lover. The contact of his skin is
making her good. It seems to her that a part of Adam’s vitality is running into
her veins like a magnetic flow, effacing the pain.
Will continue on next issue of AIR